>>97622Holy shit, found a gem of a thread.
Born one month premature to 40 yo parents, had to stay in the NICU to let my heart fully develop. Had to go abroad in a tropical location because of my parents’ work, received 6 gorrillion vaccines and also hit fevers of 40+ degrees Celsius regularly. Diagnosed Generalized Anxiety Disorder and “symptoms of dysgraphia” in elementary school, though I was turbo-hyperactive even then. I developed pretty bad stimming. They said I did not have autism, though.
Elementary school they diagnosed me with inattentive ADHD, but their testing methodology was somewhat shit. I also developed tics around this time, and they have fluctuated since then. High school they said I had dysthymia and SzPD/OCPD traits, some symptoms of shit like CPTSD, borderline, and some other shit I don’t remember. They dropped the ADHD diagnosis because I did not answer in a hyper-specific way their methodology wanted, and also because I feel like they just wanted an excuse to paint me as a lost cause and just “manage” me instead of actually try to help me.
COVID came, my life went downhill because my school were retarded niggers that wanted to work us to the bone because they thought staying at home would be fun for us, I had a foid teacher manipulate me into developing a oneitis for her and use me for supply because I liked her despite me never making a move on her (last day of school she brought her boyfriend there and they were staring at me), and I also have a fucked up septum and chronic inflammation in my nose since COVID that blocks me from being able to breathe, smell, taste, or sleep well — so I have been a lethargic, walking zombie going on for years now.
I was good at science and history. I can memorize a lot of facts, maybe even come up with something here and there — but I cannot do it consistently, and my ability to do so also took a further hit after COVID. I cannot do math 90% of the time, though sometimes my brain just randomly locks in. I am better (though not a genius) at physics, but eventually my lack of math skills caps me.
Graduated HS with a 2.35 GPA out of 5.33. Only had an AP Biology to my name, which I managed to score a five in — and I mostly just took that as a cope to feel less retarded. That’s literally the highlight of my academic “career.” Right now, I usually sit at home being a NEET and doing nothing. I got tested again and had the ADHD and depression confirmed by a psychiatrist and psychologist, plus SzPD/AvPD, and OCPD traits, and I also scored high enough on the ‘tism test for a referral. I am not even sad or really angry anymore — just incredibly burned out, emotionless, anhedonic, abulic/lethargic, and have little empathy (especially for normgroids) which has caused me to become paranoid I am becoming a sociopath/narcissist. It is, however, a narcissistic, commodified world we are living in where you have to be and present as perfect and abide by dog eats dog, so I guess it makes at least some sense.
Parents were retarded boomer fags, so good luck trying to talk to them about any of this. Being Gen Z with boomer parents is actually unreal, and I don’t wish it on anybody. It is like perpetually stubbing your toe on something. The amount of neglect, belittling, lecturing, comparison, naivety, and everything else associated with them is beyond your comprehension — and my folks are some of the better ones, because they usually just ignore me and let me do my own thing unless something goes wrong or they feel like I have to do something at/by a certain time, which is when the bitching and moaning picks up again.
