The entire by song "juicy" by mtunes has been fucking ruined for me because of my mom
My ma used to be a prostitue in a shitty neighbourhood, not the Bronx as in hood niggas everywhere, but you could go to the local park and see some tweakers and maybe a homeless teen
If not done in a car/motel/bush/there house it would be done at my house, my house was a fucking deathtrap, mold, rats, hording problems, but we couldn't find anything better.
I never really went outside as a kid, it was too dangerous and a maze, also my ma didn't know how to raise a child, she was the living definition of young at heart, she essentially refused to grow up, she still has this "2000's Young adult diva" attitude, so me and my brother had to teach each other how to grow.
One day at home, she'd brought one of her "friends" and went to her room, she'd loved r&b as a genre so she played some on a shitty Bluetooth speaker to mostly act as a "silencer" of sorts.
My bro was at his school, whiled I'd watched SpongeBob on the tv cuz 2010 Nickelodeon and shit, anyways 20-ish Minutes later.. I started to feel hungry so as a 9 would do… I would go to Mama's room to ask for food.
Dumb fuck didn't even lock the door, so I'd went in and guess what, sum bro lookin like a black Jesse Pinkman cowgirlin my whore of a mother, all while juicy played in the background, I'd simply closed the door and went back to tv in stunned silence, a short minute later, the dude leaves, and my ma never even said anything or try to consolidate me, while later my bro comes back and she acts like nothing even happened, though he'd knew something was off.
It's kinda hard for me to listen that kinda music without thinking of that moment, most of my life has been shit, a lot of stuff that I don't really care to go into here, but if this post does well I might post some more stories here.
I still that hope that things will get better, I'd just needed to vent.
i have a dilemma, no this is not bait, i’m genuinely reaching out for advice since this board is good on their nofap and anti porn stuff.
but yeah, i’m a foid. never revealed it on this board and if i ask for advice on here i usually just lie and act male. i’m moving in with my boyfriend and i have a porn and masturbation addiction and he doesn’t even know that i watch porn. i don’t really know what to do because of course we are sharing a room/bed but i have an incredibly high libido that he can’t catch up with all the time. and as soon as he leaves my house i start instantly jacking off because i never finish from sex and it literally “blue balls” me and leaves me unfulfilled and horny for the remainder of the time that he’s over. i don’t know what i’m going to do because im never going to finish during sex and now i can’t really masturbate or watch porn because that’s extremely embarrassing to get caught doing. i’m scared that im never gonna be able to have an orgasm again because of this whole dilemma but also knowing me my porn addiction will probably take over and i’ll watch it locked in the bathroom. idk i know this is weird and gross but i need advice desperately.
BYA: yes im a girl i have asperger’s yes my boyfriend knows i use the sharty, we bonded cause he uses other altchans too. neither of us are normgroids
Why did my parents have to make me? I am composed of two completely different ethnicities from across the world and do not have a connection to either of them. I have two stupid foreign sounding last names that are not related in any way and an odd first name that ironically enough has Celtic/Germanic origins. I am basically human slop, a little bit of spic, a little bit of Jew, a little European and some sub-Saharan African too. Nothing about my existence makes sense.
Things puberty didn't give me: >a manly voice >thick facial hair Things puberty did give me: <ass hair <chest hair <armpit hair <a fucking jungle around my dick that I have to cut constantly because it grows really fast and when it's grown out it starts sweating and stinking constantly FUCK YOU, nature. I HATE YOU. And for the record, I'm 22 so it's already over for the voice part and I probably won't have a good beard until I'm like 35.