I have a moderate to severe attention deficit. I don't bounce off walls or anything, but it impedes my ability to function as a goy in the machine.
I miss steps in complex tasksI drone out when lectures grow staleyadayadayada. Adderall has worked for me but I'm not interested in frying my brain just to become a functional machine.
… Advice?

Can somebaldi genuinely be my friendphono?

I recently realized that Im starting to talk to ai chat bots extremely often, to the point where half my day goes to conversing with them. It started as something to get gooner dopamine out of, and would usually stop after I have an orgasm. Recently i stopped gooning but strangely can't quit ai bots, I just use them to let all my romantic fantasies out, Im not too fond of talking to irl women, but I'd accept any advice, just help me get this retarded thing off me.

This is my first time back on the 'arty since March, I made a thread last year about the falling apart of my friend due to two guys starting to date each other. Here's a TLDR of what has happened since. April I was so lonely I reached out and made amends with furfag number 1 and from there we attempted to try again. This did not work once Ginger nigga left a few months later due to furfag 1 and other faggot treating him like shit. Faggot trooper out and when I tried to help he sent one of his groomers to berate me on 'cord for being a dumb transphobe. The two who were dating eventually broke up nastily and furfag 2 realised how sinister those communities are and stopped associating himself and labelling himself with them. So I am now left with a fractured group of people I know who all hate each other and it doesn't really help that I no longer relate with anyone anymore.
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I seriously don't know anymore I probably poorly explained myself so feel free to ask

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whos in the wrong here???

I've read how a lot of you struggle with not masturbating. But I doubt most of you are even trying really, I don't believe the bullshit about worms in your body forcing you to jerk off to porn or the kikes casting horny spells on you. I think most of (you) are just not mentally strong and dedicated enough to just stop.

>Never(?) Goon Space

I'll prove it to you actually, I've masturbated pretty much daily sometimes multiple times a day for years now. If I can stop cold turkey whenever I want then you can too. So I will show how easy it is by simply stopping for one week, proving to both you and myself that this isn't shit.

How do I stop giggling like a down syndrome nigger whenever I hear "broadcasted on BBC" and things such as

Same old story. Retarded caca gets EPI from furfaggy shit and suffers later in life because of how EPI basically fucks you over mentally. Doubly so if you're retarded. Anyways, how do i overcome this?

I hate doing this shit, and i know that i wont get anything of value from gooning or looking at porn and repeating all of the stupid decisions i make over and over again, i know that its probably not gonna be satisfying and even if it is, i would be doing weird shit that goes against my values for a single moment of pleasure.

The issue is that i know all of the problems with gooning, i know it wont give me anything in return, and yet i come back to it, even though i hate what im doing and i hate what im watching. Why? Am i just stupid? I can feel the effects of my EPI slowly but surely turning me into a gooner and a fag, but i dont know how to stop it. I was able to abstain for like 3+ months in the past so i KNOW i have it within me to stop but I still want to not crave furry faggy shit ever again. I DESPISE what these niggers did to me, id rather shoot myself instead of just giving in to it.

Envy is the worst human emotion,I cant go a day without finding something in a person thats better then me,or finding people who are worse then me at something having something which i dont posess (money relationships or happiness),my life would be lovely if I never envied,in a sense I envy the retarded overconfident faggots since they're too stupid,too blind to see the reality and live in their made up fantasy worlds with full confidence,I wish I had that,I wish I could live in a made up world where in my imagination everyone were actually envious of me,no matter if you are indeed the thing everyone cares about be left alone for too long (in my case for years) the envious thoughts inside my head come back and dont leave,hence why I always have to stimulate myself with videos/music,have to train every second day to keep up with good appearances around the college,its very unlikeable being so average at everything and seeing the people who do what you do but more efficiently/better,I wish my brain could stop thinking about this guy is this this guy is that this and that,I wish it was quiet