Envy is the worst human emotion,I cant go a day without finding something in a person thats better then me,or finding people who are worse then me at something having something which i dont posess (money relationships or happiness),my life would be lovely if I never envied,in a sense I envy the retarded overconfident faggots since they're too stupid,too blind to see the reality and live in their made up fantasy worlds with full confidence,I wish I had that,I wish I could live in a made up world where in my imagination everyone were actually envious of me,no matter if you are indeed the thing everyone cares about be left alone for too long (in my case for years) the envious thoughts inside my head come back and dont leave,hence why I always have to stimulate myself with videos/music,have to train every second day to keep up with good appearances around the college,its very unlikeable being so average at everything and seeing the people who do what you do but more efficiently/better,I wish my brain could stop thinking about this guy is this this guy is that this and that,I wish it was quiet