Same old story. Retarded caca gets EPI from furfaggy shit and suffers later in life because of how EPI basically fucks you over mentally. Doubly so if you're retarded. Anyways, how do i overcome this?

I hate doing this shit, and i know that i wont get anything of value from gooning or looking at porn and repeating all of the stupid decisions i make over and over again, i know that its probably not gonna be satisfying and even if it is, i would be doing weird shit that goes against my values for a single moment of pleasure.

The issue is that i know all of the problems with gooning, i know it wont give me anything in return, and yet i come back to it, even though i hate what im doing and i hate what im watching. Why? Am i just stupid? I can feel the effects of my EPI slowly but surely turning me into a gooner and a fag, but i dont know how to stop it. I was able to abstain for like 3+ months in the past so i KNOW i have it within me to stop but I still want to not crave furry faggy shit ever again. I DESPISE what these niggers did to me, id rather shoot myself instead of just giving in to it.