Ik u all hate fags but Idc at this point.. Today we had a new attractive male teacher and I was being retarded and not doing the work, so he comes super close and starts telling me off, as such I start blushing and trying to hide my face so no one can see. But then it just gets more red and bro the STARES I get are insane. I actually fcking hate being gay so much, everyone ik is homophobic and I’m too scared to tell anyone irl
i genuily got nothing cool going on, i feel like everyone hates even thinking about me, i dont really got many peaple to talk to and the ones i do wouldnt even help or make me feel better and probably will just pat me on the back and say everythings gonna be alright, i feel so miserable seeing my friends have fun and post on the internet i just start to cry, i really dont want to attentionfag i hate being the center of attention but ive felt this way for so long i dont really know what else to do
I was not meant to be born, and that is evidenced by the fact that both my parents were 18 when my mom gave birth to me. They ended up divorcing years later. I definitely didn’t grow up impoverished or malnourished or anything, but they didn’t seem to take into account that I wouldn’t be a baby/child for the rest of my life. Neither of them gave me a roadmap on what it is that I should do with my life. They didn’t ever push me to go to college or get a career. They didn’t ever show me how to drive (I eventually just learned to do it on my own). They never pushed me to succeed. In high school, I was left to my own devices. All of my classmates had a semblance of an idea for what they wanted to do when they graduated, but I had nothing. 4 years later, I’m still doing nothing with my life. Not even a crappy retail or fast food job. It just feels bad knowing that everyone else had mature, non-retarded, supportive parents who actually knew what they were doing while I just got unlucky, I guess. I mean, what can I even do? I can’t get back all those wasted years of my life.
Do people on this site consume recreational drugs? >legally of course, im asking about legal consumption and not about anything illegal. nothing pertaining to anything illegal, no xir
I am genuinely having trouble keeping track of what I need and want to do. All of my time is getting absorbed by youtube because I genuinely cannot remember having anything better to do?
What's worse, when I try to set up systems to remember, I forget to either check them, or I forget how to maintain the system. I probably have 4 different "to-do" lists buried in obsidian (note taking program) alone, and my pocket book to-do lists quickly gets buried by snca. > can't remember how to remember o algo
Does anyone know how to set up something that works?
Yea, I could probably just ask ChatGPT for a quick answer and it would probably work, but that is boring as shit and I have not submitted to being a total Goy just yet.
