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> be me
> perfectionist gifted kid
> learn multiple foreign languages (English, French, German, might start Italian net year)
> great at math, chemistry, biology, art, anything at all
> people begin to have very high standards when it comes to me due to my perfect grades and all
> I try to reach them, and I usually manage, and in exchange I get praise (which I am practically addicted to)
> slowly but surely began to burn out
> I realised I'm getting worse at everything
> people praising me less, saying I'm lazy ad egocentric
> I believe them
> I push myself harder, whether I'm tired or not, and acting overly selfless to an unhealthy degree
> cope with stuff in unhealthy ways
> finally, people started to worry, saying I look tired, that I should take a break
> I don't listen, I began to reject all compliments and take in only the insults, and I still feel like I am "lazy" and "egocentric"
> goes on for 3 years or so
> getting to a point where I want to off myself
> only thing keeping me alive was my fear of Hell
> I began to pray, and pray, and pray
> timeskip to now
> I have an incredible boyfriend, I started to accept people's help, started taking breaks every now and then, I began to sleep and eat more, and I'm slowly managing to deal with everything
There's always something good at the end of the tunnel, you just have to hope and pray for it, God is good
> perfectionist gifted kid
> learn multiple foreign languages (English, French, German, might start Italian net year)
> great at math, chemistry, biology, art, anything at all
> people begin to have very high standards when it comes to me due to my perfect grades and all
> I try to reach them, and I usually manage, and in exchange I get praise (which I am practically addicted to)
> slowly but surely began to burn out
> I realised I'm getting worse at everything
> people praising me less, saying I'm lazy ad egocentric
> I believe them
> I push myself harder, whether I'm tired or not, and acting overly selfless to an unhealthy degree
> cope with stuff in unhealthy ways
> finally, people started to worry, saying I look tired, that I should take a break
> I don't listen, I began to reject all compliments and take in only the insults, and I still feel like I am "lazy" and "egocentric"
> goes on for 3 years or so
> getting to a point where I want to off myself
> only thing keeping me alive was my fear of Hell
> I began to pray, and pray, and pray
> timeskip to now
> I have an incredible boyfriend, I started to accept people's help, started taking breaks every now and then, I began to sleep and eat more, and I'm slowly managing to deal with everything
There's always something good at the end of the tunnel, you just have to hope and pray for it, God is good
