I wish I had a older sister, before someone calls me a faggot I already call myself a faggot for thinking like this

before you ask no its not because of incest "you want to have sex with your sibling!" no in fact I have no siblings at all besides half siblings who I barely meet at all who are far younger than me

ive always wanted a older female friend growing up since the only female interaction I had were my relatives (mostly my mom), I saw guys with older sisters growing up and they were far happier than I ever was, I was mostly alone with my mom & half sibling with no one but myself

I don't like going out in the world just to form "friendships" almost everyone I've talked to had rejected me or pushed me away in some way, im tired of just having my mom I want someone else whod actually be there for me, someone to talk to and someone to be with that would just be there solely on the basis of being related, I want that.

Again, I'm a giant faggot and you can call me that bud I'd hope you'd understand