i can't do this shit anymore. for 4 years of my life i've been struggling (on and off) with sissy porn addiction. i was introduced to it by pedos on discord and since then i just can't get rid of it. the thing is i'm not even that much of a loser. i have friends and i've had relationships. but i always go back to that site and watch sissy porn. i'm a pathetic faggot i know but i can't stop. i just can't, i need help.

>You pervert
>You like foids in any form that isn't purely platonic worship?
>You're a rapist
>How dare you have basic biological urges as an avarage straight guy

Bruh I'm such a chud incel foid hater fr

I missed out on great opportunities.

I have done so many mistakes in my 20 years of living more than most people in their lives.

I am done with this. And honestly, it feels over.


Shout out to Negative XP, Fried by fluoride, some other incel core stuff. 20 years old and its already over.

so i have this shepenis in my class and her no dick having ass is bugging me off + shes a woke libtard who doesnt shower and had her teeth removed cus she doesnt brush them, her tiktok is caelusmeow and so is her youtube + shes larping south park and wants to fuck verity like the sick animal she is, please raid her it would be so fucking funny

Context: I barely know this girl and have been liking her months. We both are engineering students so we barely have time for anything but studying

What is the political implications of this? Is she trying to soft reject me? Is she genuinely not looking for anything but she is not totally closed to the idea of maybe letting the date (?) lead to somewhere?

I know she wouldn't've said this if I was a HTN, but I still want to have hope.

6'2 btw

SInce this is the serious board, i thought ill write a contradiction in my head that is kinda making me leave religion and kinda not.
Darwinism vs Christianity, this isnt just a surface level "evolution debunks religion" thing, these 2 beliefs are distinct and kinda opposite ways of looking at the world.
When i mean darwinism i dont mean the scientific meaning, i mean the ideological meaning. Life and the world are dictated by the survival of the fittest, resources are scarce and its a fierce competition for those resources and strength meaning the ability to attain those resources is strength, and strength is the ultimate virtue
Nordics for example, are genetically the most beautiful race, as an analogy the brightest peacocks among the human race and the best at attracting mates, are the most intelligent and inteligent is whats behind human strength to thrive in this darwinian world, other races are genetically inferior and they must die. It is simply nature, just as the genetically less brighter peacocks, less intelligent creature dies out.
I mean the pure essence of racism, not "cultural racism". I would define cultural racism as basically any normal opinion called racist by insane leftists, in a cultural sense racist has become a meaningless buzzword, but behind all of this fog, the word racist is fundamentally darwinian.

Christianity says life and the world are to be lived with love, forgiveness and empathy. We are made in god's image, we are one in jesus. That we have free will and souls. Even the weak must be given love. But also that the world and everything is god's creation and god is omnipotent.
Then why is the world so harsh and darwinistic? Darwinism isnt an invented ideology or belief, which is what makes it unique. Darwinism is based off of what is observed in reality, making it the most realistic and practical ideology.
Race is an example, if men are all created in god's image and we are all one in jesus, then does that a mean a somali is equal to a swede? Or is the world darwinistic, and down to a genetic unchangeable level with no god or choice involved. Even the goodness of a superior race isnt from any choice or effort, its from genetics. And the inferior races cannot change, and theres no inherent soul but we're just animals who are slightly smarter but still live according to the harsh jungle conditions.
Ive spent years reading and thinking about the ideas here, and darwinism vs christianity is the most noticeable and common contradiction, those 2 ideas are spread here often and i dont know why people dont bring them up. But i notice the tension.

> Be me
> Self-taught in everything because teachers in my brimmstone country are dogshit and I have no money for online ones.
> I'm good at learning by myself, and I like it, just extremely inconsistent.
> Either I go full workaholic for weeks (hyperfocus one topic until I master it, then forget everything else from lack of practice)
or I rot for weeks straight.
> Tried all the normie stuff already.
> "Kill decision fatigue, break it into tiny chunks" the whole routine. Hell, I even make full mind maps: what to learn, when, which materials, how to use them.
> Still, when it's time to actually start… I just don't want to.

During the rotting periods there's this sort of "invisible wall" stopping me. Even if I want to work, my brain just refuses, same way you couldn't force yourself to touch a hot oven even if you wanted.
Most professionals have bosses, assistants (or wives) that force them through this wall. and while I have none, but thought about finding some sort of "monitoring" pal who checks that I'm actually working, but nobody does that for free long-term, and paid versions aren't an option. Therefore unless I find a practical way to get someone who does this I'm all alone at this.
Outside of this I have absolutely no more ideas to try. Any anons actually broke this boom-bust cycle? got any ideas or adice to guide?

How many hours a day should you spend doing productive work, im trying to pursue a hobby and be able to make a living off of it but I've been a lazy nigger most of my life until pretty recently and have been trying to become productive.

breh i have been dealing with extreme derealization everytime i drink heavily, not like normal but like EXTREME.

yall been thru this? lmk cuz it makes me wanna fuckign kms this shit is aids