no means yes
yes means anal

>just be a monkey
broootal

mfw seeing foids on my truecel board

After about 2 weeks of not fapping my libido always spikes up. Im at this point now and i dont even want to goon my mind is always thinking about sex i really want to have sex with a woman
What should i do about my sexual frustration?

All I need is one more dose increase and I’ll be normal. Just some more meds. All I need is one more pill. Just need some more pep in my step that’s all. All I need is just some more meds. Some more meds and I’ll be able to be normal. Just need some more. Just need some more pep in my step.

I lost the key to my clitty cage. WTF do I do now?

I just woke up and I DEFINITELY need to quit the internet for a while. No, this is not bait, I wish it was.
Mods don't ban me this is fiction
Just to be clear, I'll probably double post this on /soy/, so don't get weirded out when you see it.
>Find fetish art on the 'affinity of some smug grey, fat cat furry standing behind a green school writing board.
>In the picture she, quite smugly, says something like
<Ok, write down "1100Ball00nB0yL0ver"!
>Much to the horror of some other character I forgot how looked
>Look that person up
>Find a wiki article, which I skim over due to length. It had extremely weird shit like what that dude called boy and girl balloons (Bim/Banjo and Gim/Ganjo if I recall correctly if you're curious) as well as pictures of balloons he owned on a plain white background. Picrel 2 is similar, except the balloon actually resembled a victorian child painting and his favorite balloon faced the side.
>Suddenly, my dream cuts to a latinx chick talking about the subject. You know those girl essay youtubers with milquetoast takes? Yeah imagine someone like that. She wasn't thin either btw, as a proud meximutt should be.
>She goes in detail about this person, and shows videos of him sitting in a dark room.
>He wore a mask, quite like picrel 3. It looked like his skin and with some angles he did he looked like a FNAF animatronic.
>She mentions how he talked about his fetish on some snca forum under the name "428"
>Turns out, the website generates numbers like this for new users, and 1100Ball00nB0yL0ver passed away soon after, so he never got to change it.
That's about where it ends. I literally woke up and said "What the fuck was that?", and I ended up writing this. does anyone have dreams this fucking weird? This is probably my very first.
Since this is the advice board, what the hell can I even do here? I'm stuck and confused.

>high school is soyjak.party
>the principal is quote
>the teachers are the mods
>substitute teachers are jannies and the other staff are approvers/mediators
>the school bus is /qa/
>the classroom is /soy/
>the cafeteria is the booru
>the playground is the IRC
>homework is the wiki
>detention is the shiwi
>getting suspended is getting banned

So I've been dealing with this strange habit/coping mechanism lately where whenever I feel effeminate or low confidence I just start masturbating to cuckolding porn but importantly I only ever self insert as the bull and try to find only videos from that pov. It's actually worked pretty well. The thing about confidence is that it literally improves everything else in your life. You don't have to go through some stoic mental gymnastics to reduce your sensitivity to pain and discomfort because those things just happen naturally. You don't have to worry about what's right and wrong because your testosterone and drive to dominate will take care of that for you. Your mind doesn't wander and lose its train of thought because the only thing that matters is your superiority. I feel more intelligent and experience a level of mental clarity that I never even expected to be possible. It just feels so natural. For context, this is coming from someone who used to be so porn addicted I could only get off to the idea of being a gay bottom. I've even penetrated myself with various objects to fulfill that fantasy,and used to self insert as the cuck in that genre of pornography. Now I've taken the reins and find myself wondering why it ever felt so wrong? It feels like my body is finally doing all the work for me. It's not even that hard. Once you fall into the groove of valuing yourself first and wanting to dominate, you don't even entertain the idea of failure. It feels like living in a dream that just never ends. Someone slap me awake before I become a psychopathic narcissist.