Hello saars
How can I find direction in life? Everything I do I either forget about, is hard to learn or is not up to my liking. I don't really know what to do anymore. I need to go somewhere but I don't know where and why. Sorry for it being so short, but I don't know what else to type

These foids only ever get me into situationships
or miserable relationships that always end with me having a broken heart. I swear, why do foids have to be such hypergamous diddy ahh foids? Why do all foids turn out to be the same? How on earth am I supposed to have a favourable opinion of them when they're literally the Jews of gender?

Suicide method suggestions, no guns or anything scary I'm a pussy

I've noticed that I have this weird kind of cuck mentality went it comes to social interactions. I feel an odd sense of happiness and jealously whenever I hear about one of my friends succeeding socially. Like I wish I was in their position but understand I'm not and almost enjoy that idea. This isn't sexual, to be clear, it's more of a general feeling of elation and comfort. It's like when you're excited about something happening. I think this comes from having to constantly hear other people talk about their social lives. I have good hearing and I always heard people talking about everything they were doing while in class or at lunch. It was depressing to always be sitting by yourself while everyone around you ranted about how great their life was. Recently I've started to have some social interaction with people and I've pretty much embraced the role of "weird guy who can't interact with people but will show you some cool stuff". I don't mind it honestly, I can't and kinda don't want to connect with people normally.

im a stupid fucking nigger and i hate myself

4cuck mods are actual rapist terrorists i posted a thread about jews but the file image tripped some spam filter so now im banned for 2 fucking months for shit that gets posted all the time/i posted with no issues previously. they wont tell me why my thread was banworthy and dodged like a pussy when I asked them if the ban was automated by a filter. they know they're in the wrong but they hate me

>on a voice call for something irl related
>girl in vc has a good personality
>we keep talking
>apparently she likes the same games and stuff as i do
>check her pfp
>shes actually attractive too
>ff few days later
>i confused another girl for her in person
>relief.png because i dont really have any attraction to the other girl
>realization comes
>i think the kinda fat girl in the irl meeting was the girl i was talking to online
i dont think that was actually her either bc like their pfp looks a lot different then irl and maybe im just a retard
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most of us pretty new to that organization as well so its not really surprising i dont know people and their names irl. what do i do bros

Would anyone else prefer to be with an older foid? I don't mean the mommy fetish thing of a foid in her 40s, I just mean a foid who is a few years older than you. I definitely would, if she's in her late 20s and hasn't whored herself out then she's probably a good woman. And since she's older she has much less of an incentive to sleep around or break up with you since she'll want to be settling by now. I would also just feel better around an older foid, she's probably a lot more mature and would be nicer and less demanding of me than a younger one

I hate being an annoying piece of shit. I only have like three friends and they all dread my presence because I always just talk at them about SNCA. I have no one else to share my ideas with so I, for whatever reason, feel it safe to tell them, but obviously, they hate me for it. I just don’t know when to shut the fuck up, ever.