just spent like 15 hours on my phone and it's 5:30am rn

xhe was so sexy and pretty. I wish I could have gotten naked and bumped uglies with her.

I kind of miss my ex, even if i'm in a new relationship. Sometimes i just get reminded of her, and i get some kind of feeling, it gnaws at me from the inside. My relationship with her wasn't anything special, and it kind of just lasted through out the summer. It was a situationship to be honest. I wasn't really treated that well. After she threw me away like yesterdays trash, we didin't talk for 2 months, and one day she reached out to me, sent me a friend request on instagram. I remember it vividly, i was playing l4d2, and my phone buzzed. I saw the notification, but at the same moment a tank spawned in. Both those things caused me to hyperventilate, and i think i almost fainted. For the next 3 weeks she really tried to crawl back in to my life, saying how she misses our friendgroup and all that. A little later she found out about my new girlfriend. That discouraged her a bit , but she continued to try and grab my attention anyway she could, and ultimately gave up once i blocked her on instagram after i couldn't take it anymore. Tho, to this day she still does weird things. I was playing a game, saw i had a spectator, and the only person online on my friend list was her ( i forgot to un-add her, and i did after ubsae what she was doing). Maybe a day later i saw her on the street. She did say hi but she looked really miserable. My friends and i do usually clown on her for the way she acts and what she does, but somewhere for what ever reason, i still care for her. A part of me still likes her.


Now, on to my current girlfriend. I don't think that i actually like her much. When i first met her (about a month and a half after i got dumped), she seemed cool, and after she eventually caught feelings and confessed, i kinda just thought "fuck it, we ball". I don't really want to break up with her tho, mostly because i'm her first boyfriend ever (no one probably liked her, because in the country i live in, people who are viewed as different get classified as retards). I don't want to hurt her, i really don't. Sometimes i think about what i feel towards her, and i kinda see some love but it's not enough to actually be happy in a relationship. I'm kind of waiting for her to break up with me. For the past month her temper got really bad. It's allways been like that but she never showed it before. I hate that i feel this way, i feel disgusting, and i don't know how i live like this. There's no purpose in doing this, and in the long run, i'll just hurt myself and her more.
What can i even do at this point ? I've been with her for about 4 months now, i'm in too deep, so there's not much i can do. And i don't even feel safe to tell this to any of my closest friends, and i have to resort to you people on the bald man with glasses website.

My girlfriend broke up with me the same week my grandma died (like a month ago) and it sucked. I started taking this kratom 7-oH shit to avoid thinking about anything.

Now i'm like three days off it and just feel really down. I get panicky thinking that my ex really is gone and leaving me. Just feel really depressed.

not to post a SNCA thread, I've been trying to keep my mind of things. Running, walking around the city, gaming, but I just have this gnawing feeling in my chest. I even started to pester my ex to see if she'd just talk to me once.

Idk. We last spoke 41 days ago. We broke up like a week before valenties day and I asked if she'd still want to spend it with me. It went fine.

What do I do?

I feel like a faggot for gooning to tomboys. The more boyish they look, the more I get off on it. I don't like gay porn at all, but I don't know what it is about tomboys that I find so appealing. I mean, I can sort of explain it… It’s that feminine aesthetic combined with that twink look, and the fact that they have a vagina is what does it for me. They shouldn’t be pooners doe, as pooners are usually hairy and too manly.

andrew

> doesnt watch porn
> doesnt talk to multiple women
> loves me
Is it that hard moids? Here comes the muhh chad sexual incels

i wish my penis was in the zone where you can laugh it off when someone calls it small because you know that in no universe is it actually considered small
fuck my shitty 15cm chudcel life god damit

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which character/s do you relate to the most nusois