Whenever there was a time where I would discuss opsec and tech with somebody and they said "What's opsec?" First I begin to shiver, and then I begin to scream and continuously yelling "OPSEC LEVEL: WHAT'S OPSEC? HAHAHA!" and then my muscles tense so hard that the skin begins to rip and then my eyes turn red and then I go into blackout rage mode and nothing can stop me and when I snap back to my senses he is just a pile of organs and I am covered in blood and it's blood running down the walls and I try to block out what I've done but I know it's too late and bad opsec

so on /soy/ they're raiding some pedonigger forum and i saw screencaps and now i can't stop feeling sick. i was molested by a pedonigger when i was 13. that was my first real experience with anything sexual and i think this turned me kinda bi. yeah, i know, im a disgusting faggot and i should kill myself. i hate that i turned out like this. i hate that my sexuality was carved into me by some pedonigger. he made me this way and i never had a choice. i then read that some users on that forum were molested as kids too. and i just sit there and think… that could be me. that's literally my origin story too. seriously just think about it. what makes me different? what if i turn out as one of them 20 years later? i'm not attracted to kids at all. i would never hurt a child. but what if it just happens? what if it creeps up on me like it did with them? what if one day i wake up and i'm one of them? i can't shake the feeling. what if i'm already on that path and i don't even know it? it's like a parasite in my brain. every time i see something about pedos it triggers this spiral. if that actually ever happened i would kill myself immediately. i mean it. i couldn't live with that. i'd rather die than become that. maybe i'm just attentionwhoring, idk. im currently dating some brown wompa. i hope getting into a relationship will help me move on from this shit. thoughts or what???

i still cant concentrate. when are they inventing adhd cure

The whole AI vs artists thing is such a nothingburger, only used for clickbait when half of the artists complaining about AI can't even draw fundamentals.

>AI art is going to replace artists like me!!!!!

Have you considered that your subpar anime drawings and inability to draw backgrounds might be the reason you're getting replaced?

i fucking hate everything ESPECIALLY my life

Sometimes i randomly think it's crazy that i made it to the age i'm at
i'm not even old but I heard so many stories of kids dying in freak accidents and babies accidentally getting ran over and I think, "Why did I make it this far but they didn't?"
and I feel like a bad person because those kids never even got a chance to live while i'm just killing time on bald man with glasses website
this feels especially relevant now with all the celebrity deaths happening

I feel like I already wasted several lifetimes worth of time, even if I'm still young. And if I died tomorrow everyone would say, "Oh no he was just a kid!!!" but I still wasted 70% of the time that I've lived so far. And I think most people are this way. If I got hit by a bus tomorrow and started dying, I would feel like such an idiot for not taking my life more seriously. But I feel like this is how all of us live. We pretend like death is not real, like illness is not real, we pretend we have infinite time to do anything & it can always wait until tomorrow.

try to be as descriptive as possible, looks, demeanor, personality–what have you

I am basically hopeless when it comes to making friends. I don’t even care about finding a girlfriend or whatever. I just wish I had someone at all to talk to. I’ve been deprived of any true friends for the past 9 years. I try to make friends, so it’s not a failure on my part. It’s just, no one ever cares enough to get back with me. I know I’m whining at this point, but I just don’t know what to do. I feel hopeless and like I was not made to enjoy the basic necessities that humans need to thrive. I don’t want to be tossed away to the margins of society and forgotten, I want to have someone who will remember me.

saying something completly unique and different for nobody to see here on r9k penis shit nigger faggot poop has anyone said thsi before like a faggot retard leaving in spelling mistakes like a nigger faggot grammar retard fucker faggot nigger spic faggot retard

sometimes before i go to bed my mind randomly overwhelms itself with suicidal thoughts like a temptation to just throw myself off my 22 story apartment but i know i'll never have the strength to do that. i do feel a lot better after thinking about killing myself and dismissing it than before though