>>80459>self harmthe closest ive ever gotten to real self harm was when i was 13 years old and i wanted to tell a girl that i liked her but i was too scared and then i went home and cried and i wanted to cut my wrists but i was too much of a pussy and couldn't bring myself to do it.
>suicidei feel like most people, specifically in this generation, think a lot about killing themselves but very few actually care enough or really hate themselves and/or their lives enough to do it. if i had absolute assurance of salvation, i earnestly believe i wouldn't care if i got hit by a car tomorrow albeit i would probably hope that my parents wouldn't go through my pc after my death. it's a thing i think about quite frequently, most often in the context of one final act of martyrdom (i dont think i need to elaborate on that o algo), especially when i am feeling more stressed or melancholic than usual, but i don't want to forsake my family or place in the afterlife because i couldn't handle a relatively easy couple of decades on this gay nigger earth. maybe one day things will change and i will receive divine instructions just as Abraham did, but until then, im not going to become an hero or sneed up the local feed and seed o algo
>suicidebaiti never have, and i can't stand faggots who do. i know it's not a nice thing to think, but i honestly feel it would be better if anybody who truly pretended to kill themselves just for attention went through with their final act of selfishness instead of causing financial and emotional stress for their friends, family, loved ones, colleagues, etc. only for it to result in nothing except for them trying it again when they feel a little sad or lonely in the future. i have never felt a modicum of pity in my entire life for anybody who has pretended to ack themselves
