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How do I make my aryanime waifu real? Should I make a tulpa?

I have 1g of 20x salvia divinorum extract and I plan on making tea with it (maybe like 0.2g, i have no scales so I'll be careful)
Anyone used this before?

it started with noise to hearing bugs noise when i try to sleep while not there arent any bugs, today it got soo bad that i heard noise with people and even argued with them , once i moved out of my room there was nobody , i dont even know whats real anymore not even sure about this post , i think its better if i try not to resist

this week i had a weird dream. we as a class really hate our literature teacher a lot, for context

>trapped in a ventilation shaft
>make it out into a room with no doors, a part of a skyscraper, a window wall.
>i see a man behind a desk. his facial features look like jartycuck but he's white. wears award-san's uniform(forced coal) and has those spiral triangle pedo symbols on his forehead
>a wooden stake appears in my hand, i puncture his throat, gouge his eyes out and throw him off the window
>i find myself at school, after having a good exam, i explain what i did to my friend and he said that the literature teacher was friends with that guy and i would face repurcussions
>the teacher comes in and says that she didnt know that guy was a pedophile and leaves the room
>i wake up

Have I been using the party too much? Does this symbolize me quitting porn forever?

If you're not careful and you noclip out of reality in the wrong areas, you'll end up in the Backrooms, where it's nothing but the stink of old, moist carpet, the madness of mono-yellow, the endless background noise of fluorescent lights at maximum hum-buzz, and approximately six hundred million square miles of randomly segmented empty rooms to be trapped in
God save you if you hear something wandering around nearby, because it sure as hell has heard you

my keyword detector found this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoAwlcGDOdk

WE WERE RIGHT ALL ALONG