there is a weird sharp pain in my anus when i try to shit. i tried to get off using my fingers but there was nothing there now i can't use my bbc dildo because it's extremely painful now Please don't be Hemorrhoids please please if it was Hemorrhoids then I'm killing myself
First time I finger myself was when I was 12. I used a screwdriver and barely shoved it in. It hurt really bad and I was bleeding.
From that point on I would occassionally finger myself periodically every few months as a result of the porn I was watching.
But never once have I actually gotten to my prostate, it always fucking hurts.
Tried fingering myself again recently and this time I decided to actually shove my entire finger up my ass and it hurt so fucking bad, I took out my finger and it smelt like blood even though I couldn't see any.
Gay sex isn't like how it's depicted in fictional porn, it's probably why I can never truly be gay.