I have emotions. I can get angry, neutral, sad, even happy sometimes.
I have moods. I can be sad, neutral, party-ish (not truly happy but hyped up or whatever)

I don't have feelings.

I did not take the meds, so it's got to be in the water.

When thinking of someone, be it a childhood friend, a lover, or even someone who tried to physically hurt me, I do not feel a thing. I'm scared. I don't know if I'm even human now. Is it normal not to long for anyone?

I'm dating someone and I'm questioning myself - emotionally, I get to hold someone, engage sexually, etc. It's fun, it's hot, I am perhaps even desired. But when thinking of the person, I don't feel a thing. I do not need text them, meeting them isn't a priority.

When driving back home after a date I abuse my car as much as I can, as if to let God kill me easily if he so decides.

I also have another issue - I recall mistakes I made long ago, remedied or other, that likely only I remember. A joke I made that wasn't only inappropriate but also insane, a time I got mad at someone who didn't deserve it - whatever it'd be, those things haunt me and make my mood shit again.

i used discord for the last 6 years i am now semi quitting it because of all the horse shit and troons on there is there any good messaging apps that arent telegram or 'cord

>Oh my god, I fucking hate being forced to go to lunch and get my goyslop that these stupid normies consume.

>This is so fucking boring holy shit. I wish someone could just gather up these cattle and kill them all. It's clear the west has fallen. These types of people shoudn't have the right to live anymore.

(Chud grabs his lunch from the lunch lady whilst monologuing in his head)

(Chud glances around the cafeteria, looking for a place to sit.)

>Alright, where the hell do I sit now? It seems like all the tables are taken…

>oh.

(Upon further inspection, Chud realizes that there's only two tables left. One populated with normies with only one seat left, and the other table with only an isolated, asleep Black girl, but with the same disadvantage as the former.)

>You have to be fucking kidding me. Why the fuck does some bad shit always have to fvcking happen?

Why can't my life just be normal for once? Fuck my stupid, meaningless life. I'd rather die than even attempt to speak to or bear with the loud noises of these mind-aped slaves, so I guess I'll have to settle with the negress.

(Chud sits by the once remote Black girl who's now on her phone, as she's accompanied by him now. He places his food tray on the table, puts his arms on the marble surface, rests his eyes, and prepares to doze off to sleep.)

>At least I can finally get some sleep. Maybe I can dream of having a better life.

(5 minutes pass)

<Hey, are you gonna eat that?

>Huhhzzz…… Zzzzzzzzzz… HHzhzhzzhh…..

<Hey, wake up..

>W-What..? Wher-

<Are you gonna eat your food? I'm kinda hungry…

>*disgruntled noises* Fuck off nigger… Can't you see I'm trying to sleep here… Besides, why didn't you get any food if you wanted any..?

<Excuse me, did you just call me a nigger? Oh, and the reason I didn't get any food was because I didn't feel like it at the time, Now, why did you get food if you're not gonna eat it?

>Fuck off… Nigger…

<No Cracker… (She mockingly responds)

(Chud opens his eyes a bit more)

>Oh my fucking god fuck off you stupid fucking nigger you serve no fucking purpose in society please kill yourself you dumb idiotic baboon.

<Well, actually, I do serve a purpose, a purpose infinitely greater than your pathetic virgin ass will ever be because I'm female, and unlike you, I could actually have kids and won't end up dying alone.

<Besides, don't you have more important things to worry about? Your race is slowly dying and you can't do anything about it (Chud's eyes jolt open. His eyes glare directly at her and his head perks up with a grimace on his face.)

>My race is WHAT? I'll have you know fucking nigger. We WHITES own you. Without us, you'd have nothing and would still be getting beat just like your monkey ancestors were back then. You're so lucky we didn't just end your unintelligent pathetic race when we had the chance. You stupid fucking nigger. We gave you everything you owe, your clothes, your devices, where you stay, etcetera. Now stop talking to me.

<That's my fault. Teehee~!

<Awwwwwwww, did I make poor ol' whitey mad? I'm sorry that your race is dying and there's nothing you could do about it…..

>Kill yourself.

<You first, pedophile!

>What the fuck did you just call me you dark piece of shit?

<I called you a pedo! Since, you know, Whites are highly likely to be pedophiles based on recent studies! Lots of them reallllly seem to love consuming Cee Pea!

>Oh you dumb nigger, don't make me get into statistics… I'll have you know that all of the info you've provided was made by (((them.))) None of it was real and was made up to support your race. Fun fact, do you know that despite making up 13% of the population, niggers like you commit 50% of the crime?

<That's been debunked a long time ago.

>OH MY GOD WILL YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY YOU FVCKING DIRTY NIGGER I HOPE YOU GET 'APED BY A BIG WHITE COCK AND BEG FOR MERCY LIKE THE DIRTY SLUT YOU ARE PLEASE JUST GO KILL YOURSELF YOU FUCKING NIGGER FUCKING DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE CEASE TO EXIST YOU STUPID FUCKING APE WHY MUST YOU TORTURE ME LIKE THIS JUST FUCK OFF!

<Yikes, you are seriously mentally ill. Maybe you need to take some pills and relax.

>FUCK. OFF.

(Bell rings)

>Finally! Get me the fuck out of here. I am never sitting by you again.

<Bye.

Does anyone know what his name is

I wish I could stop eating and sleeping

tranny cord server about grooming kids into being trans and 'transage' or whatever

had this for a few months just sitting there on my pc so posted it here

https://archive.org/details/21er_202610

_Eridan_ if you can see this thread please reply to it ASAP I need to know you lurk the sharty

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