I have emotions. I can get angry, neutral, sad, even happy sometimes.
I have moods. I can be sad, neutral, party-ish (not truly happy but hyped up or whatever)

I don't have feelings.

I did not take the meds, so it's got to be in the water.

When thinking of someone, be it a childhood friend, a lover, or even someone who tried to physically hurt me, I do not feel a thing. I'm scared. I don't know if I'm even human now. Is it normal not to long for anyone?

I'm dating someone and I'm questioning myself - emotionally, I get to hold someone, engage sexually, etc. It's fun, it's hot, I am perhaps even desired. But when thinking of the person, I don't feel a thing. I do not need text them, meeting them isn't a priority.

When driving back home after a date I abuse my car as much as I can, as if to let God kill me easily if he so decides.

I also have another issue - I recall mistakes I made long ago, remedied or other, that likely only I remember. A joke I made that wasn't only inappropriate but also insane, a time I got mad at someone who didn't deserve it - whatever it'd be, those things haunt me and make my mood shit again.