>>18828I like your take on this.
Yeah it was essentially manifestation. I threw the item away with alot of love, I knew I was doing something out of love that would benefit me.
I can't even fathom going to a store to buy the item(s) again. It crosses my mind but there's just so much resistance there now.
You saying you can't just do something short term makes alot of sense honestly. I struggled to find a way to do this with smaller activities like studying without a creeping obsession looming over me during the next day.
The symbol for this I drew with the intention as something that must be mastered.
I fucked up and overshot this, I ended up cutting the symbol off the book, then cutting it in half to 'break it' (I don't know what I'm doing, but this did stop me obsessing)
I know you don't need symbols, and you can do everything with thoughts and words, but the point of me making a symbol for the want of something, was to simplify it into an easy to understand language.
It was an attempt to regulate this kind of manifestation. When I want something, I can always potentially say the wrong things.
FOR EXAMPLE:
I asked gracefully 'I wish to be awake at 5am' (context being = my sleep schedule was fucked up)
I made a grave mistake here, I couldn't help myself but gradually WORSEN my sleep schedule until it hit 5am one night. I felt ashamed and sick but then it hit me. I literally asked for this. I got exactly what I asked for.
I have changed what I asked for to be more exact but I feel like you can't avoid this mistake entirely.
This is where the symbolism comes in. You create a symbol with a SPECIFIC meaning, you then form your ask, you attatch all the love you can to this small ritual of drawing it. and then you continue on.
The symbol I drew on the item has an exact meaning. It is to completely remove something from my life, and to never see it again.
I have asked to remove something from my life before but it lacked love, because I got wrapped up in the consequences. There was doubt present which ruins the ask; the symbol bypasses this in a way.
I may have asked the wrong thing too.
The symbol is to make sure that I mean exactly as I ask, AND to maximize the amount of feeling I can put towards something. I can focus entirely on the feeling.
Each stroke of the pen feels amazing. I feel so connected with myself, it's hard to put into words just how good it feels to do this tiny little ritual.
This is why I'm kind of fascinated with the idea. I hope what I said makes some sense to you.
<Thiss whole thing stems from me having a problem with text/word based language. I was like 'why can't I just describe a thought with a picture? Not like chinese but an actual symbol' and that lead me to consider all the occult symobls that exist.
If you assign meaning to something, it must mean something. I've done this with colors and niche things to reflect my internal state. I know this worked, so why can't symbolism work to describe thoughts and feelings aswell?
>that unwrapping happens on its ownAnother reason why I think this has great potential. I don't have to consciously think about the thing I threw away. It has almost removed itself from my own mind. Thinking of the item is almost impossible. Even while writing this whole reply out, I haven't directly thought of the item. I can't really remember details about it clearly.
I know what it is, I know why I wanted it gone, but it's only half there now, if that makes sense.
>Joseph of Cupertino was reported to always be in a state of bliss and love when he did his own miraclesI imagine Jesus Christ was also like this. Some people really know how to love endlessly, and only ever keep loving.
