>Am really fucked up and suicidal, friends are losing their minds because they're scared i will attempt for the 3rd time, ok let's at least try it for them.
>Call hospital, get put on waiting list, get call back "so Ms. xxxxx we have a bed for you", i have passing voice.
>Tell them I'm trans, instantly treated differently, not allowed in a women's double room because "here are traumatized women and it's bad for them to have a "male" room partner"
>Protect the ✨ divine cis afabs ✨ from the ugly trans monster and molester at all costs.
>Why would you even care about how I'm doing, ofc the cisf0ids are more important, literally getting segregated :)
>Get put in a sad single room, away from all.
>Start crying uncontrollably, they call two doctors, one of them said "u have to understand that no matter how many women's clothes or makeup you wear youre just not a women and you have to learn to remove that and we can't put you with a holy cis afab. Lwk feels like conversion therapy.
>Want to kill myself even more than before, but can't leave now because i have cut my wrist pretty badly (needed emergency surgery) 10 days ago and they will just declare it as suicide (which it kinda was but also not) and then lock me up in a closed ward. The doctor who said I'm not a woman is also the doctor that i met on my first attempt, he just barely let me go then and said if i ever come here again he'll lock me up.
>I'm trapped, I'm lonely, I'm scared, i feel like a freak, i feel alienated from the rest of the ward, i want to leave so badly, i just sit in my room being so scared, regretting my decision so badly to have ever come here and put trust in these people, I feel imprisoned. They got my ass :(
>I feel so much worse than before and I'm so fucking scared
>Iwnbaw, doesn't matter what i look like, as soon they know you're no longer human, they even asked me if i have a vagina yet????
>Now they want to start me on some brutal meds and they literally said 'it's somewhat likely for you to get cramps and seizures from it but that is okay." Are you fucking kidding, am i even worth anything? They literally want to sedate me.
>And then there was also this ugly mcid chvd nurse who i talked to first and was a little more open and trustful with at the beginning, he kept interrupting me when i was talking to the doctor "akchually, she told me something different when i talked to her" probably malebrained but i wanted to \[removed by Reddit\] his smug face, thankfully i managed to talk my way out of all his snitching.
>I'm a passoid and look like a girl, not a brag, just to show how fucked up the system is when you're open with being trans.
>Picrel
>Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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