>>99881This goes on for like 9 years for me. I became, and i dont remember why, morbidly curious about murderers; their backstories, their methods of killing and avoiding suspition, their motivations also. I even bought a book where the "careers" and biographies of various serial killers were described. I remember being 13 and watching a video about a serial killer that youtube recommended to me and the first thought i had, literally instinctual, was "too bad i'll likely never know how it feels to kill someone". One third of my dreams is me brutally killing people, another third is me getting brutally killed, i wake up on the verge of a frenzy every day. Homicidal fantasies are one of the main sources of entertainment for me
