Struggling with severe depression for almost four years straight. Got kicked out of a uni this year cause I stopped showing up in classes even doe I liked studying there. Ended up in a psychiatric hospital. They prescribed me some pills that I stopped taking after two and a half months because they caused me to feel like an empty-headed zombie.
In addition, my constant headache got even stronger. I can't even be a proper sperge anymore. I dropped all my hobbies like history, biology, and geology months ago. I rot all day doing nothing. Now I can't even play vidya games and do art.
I live in a rural area. There is no job here. Tried freelance and it wasn't bad, but it's hard for me cause of a constant headache. Considering going to the neurologist, but he probably will prescribe me antidepressants (they use them to treat some types of headaches like mine) because simple painkillers aren't helping.
Idk should I try them or kill myself right away cause I don't want to live like that anymore. There is no joy.