Teens, I'm thinking about signing SVO contract
(Russian side,
Don't actually hate ukr, jusr tired idk)
I am:
>have no constant job
>have no gf ofc, tried, false
>hate my family and wish they all die
>secretly hate all my "friends" here
>don't have anything I'm good at
>thinking about mass 'ing
>watch gore for a laugh.
>don't have anyone I can truly open up to.
>always angry or annoyed
>successfully pretend smiling and act like I’m one of the normies.

I've been sleeping two hours a day for the past two month, skiping university classes.
Thought i can fit into normies, but seems not…
I no wanna just kms…
Maybe war is the way out for me?
A place just right for a psycho like me.
I will most likely be disposed of, but im not much worry about…
What do you think?