who else is depressed and wants to kill themselves because they are too lazy to get better?

i have caring parents and raised upper middle class and many people would kill for my life yet i am fucking miserable like a spoiled faggot brat. I just bitch and complain probably because oh poor me my life isn't perfect. i mean, i really deserve to get killed. if i saw someone acting like me i would despise them. but if i do rope then my family will be sad. so i guess i have to live out the rest of my life as a second rate fucker who will settle for mediocrity and living alone in a lonely gray apartment while my parents remain hopeful that eventually i will find joy in life or perhaps they'd secretly resent me on some level, though it would be mostly love. i have to do that because killing myself would be very selfish. but i can't live like that forever, so either i will find a wife who cures me (very unlikely) or i just decide to do the selfish evil thing and die.

>not reading allat, kys
i know bro