>>97733I guess I've spent a lot of time online and become very exposed to the way men think and it makes me self conscious/envious.
<I wish that I could be blunt with friends like males often are, I wish that I could have physical advantages over others, I wish that I could befriend males without worrying that it would sully my image to potential mates in the future, I wish to never be objectified or "fucked", one of my biggest fears is being raped, sometimes I wish that I could become a spiritual authority like a priest without it being longhoused, I wish I wasn't associated with all the "foid" bp stuff, I wish I was never seen as an attention seeker by default. I know this thread is kind of attention seeking, but I just want to share how I feel, okay?
<I dont feel like I belong in regular life but even on here, with other socially awkward people, it's impossible for me to relate to you all or reveal too much about myself because I dont want people to know I am female and think differently of me.
<I'm not trying to say that being female is harder or worse than being male, they both have their perks. I dont hate /everything/ about being female, I mean, my biggest wish in life is to become a mother and grandmother, but I hate so much about it and often idealize being a male. I think this may be one of those "grass is always greener" moments
