>>97165i notice how my blackpill knowledge is deteriorating. there was a time when i knew all the concepts inside out and could explain the reality of it all without a second thought. now, i can barely synthesize those very concepts anymore. i have come to realize that i am simply a failed normie who got lucky. as the old saying goes, you eventually become what you hate. in truth, i am nothing more than a fakecel larper now. it is deeply depressing to watch my mind slip into the mindset of a normalfag. i won the life i thought i wanted, only to lose the truth i once held, i guess.
>>97166i am terrified of watching myself slip into this pattern, even if i never had a formal name for it until now. whenever i find myself around foids, i sometimes drop into accommodating behaviour and start jestermaxxing. in this day and age, i think that jerstermaxxing is a mandatory strategy when you're sub8 and around foids. however, whenever my inhibition drops, i rant about feminism, i call my female friends foids, i rant about how hypergamous foids are etc… and somehow they never take me seriously. they just dismiss the entire rant as a symptom of my autism.