>>85415Interpreting words in a situation of despair and despondency may not be as effective as intended. Many people barely articulate what they really think, hiding their thoughts and acting impulsively, which can be outwardly interpreted as aggression.
I ask once again, for the sake of clarity, that you should never make irrevocable decisions based on other people's words, even if they contain a hint of hostility. It's very good that you still have the strength to report your active actions right here on this site to us and to me, so that we can read you, hear you, and respond to you.
In any case, whether bitter or joyful, keep in touch. This way, we will know more and our range of actions can expand, as I would immensely like to be your support and salvation, even if we are separated by thousands of kilometers. If you don't receive the words or gestures you need in your family, I myself will say the words and all the necessary gestures. The main thing is to keep moving and pull yourself out. Your actions over the past 24 hours already give me hope, which needs to be fueled every day! (I already see one of the people asked you some pretty good questions. With them, the situation will become much clearer for us.)
