I feel really detached from people, of course im still nice to them and i try to be polite but i don't feel any comradery towards them. When i help people its because i feel disgusted by them or because i feel some sort of hatred for what they represent and i want them to change.
Some people at my uni consider me as part of their friend groups and keep inviting me to their activities but i just don't get why, i feel like my conversations with them are really dry. Recently a few of my old classmates from middle school and high school called me wanting to hang out again. They seemed to remember me in a positive way but i dont remember anything about them, i even forgot some of their names. Why do people like me but i dont like them? Is there any way i can be normal?