i’m moving out with my gf in 6 days. i thought i was ready but im extremely anxious and nervous now. im a sperg she has adhd, im the type of sperg where i have overlaps with ocd and anxiety and she’s the opposite. very messy, more care free, and it stresses me out even though i love her more than anything. im scared of the room being too cluttered even doe its a huge ass room. im going to miss my dad a lot.

i know it seems like im moving out for no reason but i need my own space away from my dad, he works from home every single day and is really bad at budgeting leaving us with no food a lot of the time, plus our house is tiny. we have a dog that is very agressive to new people meaning i can’t really have friends over, it’s a pain to get into the city too and i work in the city.

i’ve saved up 4k, my rent is $116 a week including bills, and i make an income of $350 a week so i can definitely afford it. the finances aren’t stressing me out. i’m genuinely just having a sperg meltdown right now because im so anxious and stressed. i’m outside having a cigarette while writing this while she studies in my room. i was packing up my room before i went outside.

i want to cry so badly but i physically can’t, i haven’t cried in so long. i don’t know what to do chuds. i am ready but im not at the same time and i can’t back out now. i know it is the right decision to put myself out into the world and it’ll benefit me greatly. i’m only 18 and my dad says i can always move back in if i feel the need.