I stopped hanging out with my friends because I had strong desires to self-isolate because I love being alone and because they acted like assholes towards me often. Today marks the day when my last friend completely cut contact with me

It's a fucking addiction. I can't even imagine befriending anyone. I'm asocial and also have social anxiety. For the past year and a half, I've been doing nothing in my room. I hung out with them maybe like once a month or so, but now it's all gone.
Yesterday I nearly cried when I looked through some old photos we took in summer 2021. I will never have this again, but I also don't want to talk to people. Never been in a relationship, but I atleast had semi-normal few years.
My mom has been urging me to find a psychologist for nearly a year because apparently spending all my free time locked in my room alone is le bad