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I'm sad about the state of my life right now and I don't know what to do. I feel like im at a dead end, and if I don't change something I will be staying the same my entire life, watching my parents get old and die, and then myself, with no change. Advice, or any sort of comment, would be appreciated.

I'm 18 and ive started a pretty decent program where I work and learn at the same time, and my studying costs are subsidised. The only issue is that for this, I can't stay at home and I'm in a DNB shithole in the middle of nowhere with nothing to do. Also, I miss out on the entirety of uni life, with the only other 18 year olds being the dozen or so other people in the same program, otherwise its just older people in the company. I can only really see my family on the weekends when I go stay there. This means that I have a very minimal social life, its been about a month and I already know all the people I will know for the duration of this program, which is about 3.5 years. Then I go home, all my friends from school are off in their unis, and I see my family for too short a period of time to do anything with them either.

I don't really want to leave the program because for my career, there really isn't anything better, I'd have to give all my money to the kikes by taking loans for uni. But even when the program ends, I think I might only stay with that company for a short while, and move to somewhere with more life. I see too many oldfags there that have stayed in the same job, in the same shithole town, from the second they graduated to the day they retire. I cannot possibly do this. There is nobody I know in the area, and nothing happens either, so I reduce my already slim chances of getting a girlfriend to absolutely 0.

I'm just generally depressed about all of this. The only thing that is advancing is my career/education. I would already argue with my family when I lived with them, but now it is extra painful to me knowing that I have less time with them before, and I spend too much of it arguing. During the week, I go drinking with my coworkers once a week, which is basically the only social thing you can do in the town other than bowling, which is too expensive and repetitive to do all the time. I don't want to become an alcoholic, but if i don't go I don't talk to anyone outside of work, and I enjoy the brief period of feeling tipsy. The morning after doesn't feel great though, I don't have headaches or vomit but I just feel ill and I know i shouldn't have drank. I get along with one or two of the people there, but most are normies and do shit with their school friends on the weekends since they live closer, so can't relate to me.

I don't want to use this site but if I don't I feel like I'm the only person going through this and it makes me want to give up. I enjoy the conversations, but it is truly depressing knowing that a DNB imageboard is the place and people with which I socialise, instead of real people that I talk to in person. Does adult life get any better than this? Any advice for what I can do? I'm bored of playing vidya and going online, ive done it for years as my form of entertainment, I need something more real.