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he knows that I know that i'm a loser neet chud. he knows I hate myself and am ashamed of my life. But he never says anything.
the scariest thing to imagine is what I look like from the perspective of other people. I legit move and act like a fucking creature. I'm pretty sure my mind blocks this perception from me because it's so painful. The few times I'm exposed to it is when I get high and I'm forced to realize that I am actually a person other people can perceive and I'm overcome with an unbearable amount of shame and embarrassment.
the scariest thing to imagine is what I look like from the perspective of other people. I legit move and act like a fucking creature. I'm pretty sure my mind blocks this perception from me because it's so painful. The few times I'm exposed to it is when I get high and I'm forced to realize that I am actually a person other people can perceive and I'm overcome with an unbearable amount of shame and embarrassment.
