>>102563Yeah, that's me. I can make post with timestamp if somebody don't believe me. I blurred out my stuff I took off, and electric pole just in case (and deleted metadata), if somebody tries to geoGOD my location.
>you’ve actually mog the shit out of meI don't really think so, I'm only 180cm (short in most of the white countries), and this physique isn't something to be proud of. I will try my best to improve my body in the 1-2 years, maybe then I will look ok. I also don't have androgynous fag look, that most women my age like.
>How did you end up being such a doomer?Good question. That's just something you slowly accept over all the time you spend in lower parts of the Internet, where people are not afraid to tell the truth. How cruel and hopeless life really is. How fundamentally unfair it is. The concepts of biological (and racial) determinism, and fact that there is nothing you can do about your genes and faith. That none of yours achievements are yours, they all determined by your genes and childhood.
I may have not the worst genes, but my mind is irreversebly fucked up by Internet. I can't really talk with normal people. Sure I may be in the 90% of young men regarding facial attractiveness (by any means high, I think I'm hMTN), but I can't really talk without people thinking I'm insane, so I'm still at the bottom of hierarchy. Even online, I become lolcow in every community I enter. I missed important development periods other kids has. If you didn't have a girlfriend before 18, it's over for you. I'm not a pedo btw, I'm 18 myself, I'm just telling truth. You're rather first or left behind. I never had a life like the characters in Gravity Falls, Star VS Forces of Evil or Craig's Creek, like children in America do.
I'm too far gone. No woman would want to be my girlfriend. I don't even care about the intimate part, I probably could be in (mutually) asexual relationship. I don't like gooning, and I've done it only couple of times. But I think having a girlfriend would be nice experience. I simply don't see a point in it. I already burned my arms, so I want be able to goon anymore.
>Someone with your world view would be fat.I think I became blackpilled at 12. I understood that I'm too different for any women to like me, so I tried to turn myself asexual by watching furry porn, but that just made me addicted. I don't watch this brimstone for few years already, if that matters. Even if foid wanted, she wouldn't be able to understand what inside my mind. Then I discovered Reddit, Incel Wiki and 4chan, and those sites opened my eyes to the reality of modern sociosexual relationships. I understood that my faith is to be forever alone, because I simply was born defected. There are still some areas, my genes allow me to success in, so I will continue trying. I don't see the point in being fat, while I can work out and stay fit, since it is degenerative behavior. I don't see the point in studying bad, since I can study well. I'm not broken in physical or intellectual fields, but social one…
>Where I live dudes like you slayHow? What would I say? Who would agree to enter romantical relationship with me? How would I approach them? What sentences would I need to vocalize?
That's impossible.
I have seen very cute girl today at certain competition. She had straight black hair, glasses and stereotypical """femcel""" look. I already seen her year before. I doxxed her and found out her name, family, social medias, and her interests. She is very good at art, while I suck. She paints classical art. I just approached her, told her name and asked if i'm right. She told me yes, and I thanked her, and just walk away.
Even if foid liked my appearance she would be quickly disgusted by my pERsonality. Unlike what a lot of people say, there is no way to change it. I won't even have important developmental periods. I will never make rafts to swim on the river with my friends. I will never have highschool sweatheart, because females by their nature are evil beings, who only wants to exploit men and shame unattractive men.
My explanation is a bit chaotic, I recognize, I'm sleep deprived a bit, sorry. Also excuse me for bad ESL.
