I'm in a weird situation and I don't know what to do. This is long, so TL;DR is in orange at the bottom.
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I was EPI'd as a child to get aroused to BBWs and SSBBWs (basically fat and morbidly obese people respectively) and for some time I felt a lot of guilt over it because it sucks to live in such a state. I never get hard when seeing people on My 600lb Life for example because it's clear that they are suffering and that their days are numbered, but I get hard when I see BBW fetish porn or artwork.
Anyway, recently I started getting aroused when seeing gay furry porn and jacked off to it a couple of times. Yes, it's fag shit and I should probably stop, but I'd rather be a faggot than a deathfat gooner because that seems way more "normal" and no one is fucking deteriorating in front of your eyes. Jacking off to it feels better, too. No guilt and no shame.
<TL;DR: Went from fat fetishism to fag porn and it feels better.
All I'm asking now is how to actually be normal/straight like everyone else? I've never gotten the gist of it, obviously, and I want to have a normal fucking life without feeling like a degen.
>inb4 "kys faggot" supersage
I know you fucking nigger, that's why I'm posting here