I've tried getting with 4 girls in my lifetime and in all of these cases, I never felt any love, just the need to have a gf to get said love. Even though I made them blush and smile, or because I spoiled them with a gift, the most I got was a hug, I still didn't feel anything.

I don't feel like i'm allowed to show my love to them. I'm scared to infact, and not out of embarrassment. I still have a long way to go doe (im 22).