It just dawned on me how fucking disturbingly ugly I am irl. I was mostly neutral on my appearance before I got friends, but now that I’ve been talking to them more, I’ve realized that I’m the token Down syndrome friend of the group. I wouldn’t be surprised if I actually had Down syndrome at this point because God damn do I look like a fucking mutant compared to a normal person. Well, I don’t really know what to do. I’m resisting the urge to snap my neck. If there were a way to melt my face off (like in a burn victim way) I think I would be less suicidal.