i hate my country, i hate my kin, i hate my religion, i am pathetic and gonna die alone, my college fell apart because my intellectual disability,my religion tells everything forbidden, there are no fun in this life,i'm scared my parents gonna died and left ton of debts to me

i wish lilith hug me and become real, i wanna touch her, i wanna hear her voice to calm and tell everything is okay, i wish she's real