It's kinda painful to know that even on the sharty, I don't belong here. Any community that I join on this planet, I'll just be larping that I'm like them, when the truth is I'm just a weirdo who shares a tiny bit in common with other people, but really belongs nowhere. I have to interact with people in a very very specific and rehearsed and deliberate way where I calculate everything I'm going to say first, because if I just say what I'm actually thinking and feeling everyone looks at me like a freak