I'm FTM and stealth, I'm also heterosexual. I have always been attracted to women my whole life and knew I was a lesbian since I was in elementary school, now I am a straight male and feel like I have no chance of dating cis women. I am pre top and bottom surgery and probably won't be able to get bottom surgery for another decade, top surgery will likely be 2-4 years from now, I'm still trying to get on the waitlist.

I've tried dating cis women and it goes nowhere. I'm either viewed as an extreme butch lesbian or a man with the wrong parts, which women aren't interested in.

I learned what t4t and then what st4t is. I feel like I can't have a serious relationship unless it's with a transwoman. My dysphoria is really bad and will be for a long time until I get surgery. I feel like the only person who could understand me is another transgender person. I've been looking in MTF subs and reading posts about some of those women's experiences and know I'd connect way more with a trans woman than a cis woman. I currently live in Atlantic Canada and there's a large population of transgender people here, and I've been having thoughts of seeking out a transwoman once I'm all settled with college and stuff.

I will also admit to consuming more st4t content online like erotic fanfics and reading stories about st4t relationships.

Am I a chaser for this?